what reaction i should be..

Since I can accept my old life..I tried to be a happy girl..

But,I wonder if they want me to be like this..everyday and every second time I tried to cheer up myself..

but it's not enough for them..right??why??

why can't they see my happiness??i'm so tired rght now..

always try to make everyone happy..but sometimes I forgot myself..

when I smile they said I'm senile..

when I laugh,they say i'm not serious..

what am I supposed to do??

listen what they say or just be me..

if i make a straight face they said i have problem..

so??what should I do..

truth is..I really donno..